Letting Go

         

 

So this past Sunday I had a conversation with a close friend of mine let me call him Wesley. The back story is that we’ve had a good friendship and this was the relationship I invested the most in last year. I hadn't realised how emotionally draining the relationship had become for me. 

To him I was a confidant and as I got more and more emotionally invested I developed feelings somewhere along the line I thought that we could make a great couple even as other men approached me he was at the back of my mind.

Misguided as they were the feelings were strong and the worst part is almost all interactions I had with him left me feeling worse than before. Something I could have been more conscious of was atmosphere. People carry different atmospheres and energies which are transferable. Overall our relationship has been good, he taught me a few things and he contributed to my growth but over the last year, it became an unhealthy attachment, something that I needed to let go of in order to move forward and at the speed that I need to.

I don't think we'll be talking soon or ever again and I am okay with that.  I am letting go of anything that hinders or any unnecessary burden (Heb 12:1). I said some seemingly harsh words which are true and which I wouldn't take back because I know I came from a genuine place with love and my intent was to build up and not to tear him down. 

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I no longer have to hope that something more could come out of this relationship, that door has officially been shut. I’m moving forward and not looking back.